the after days · The Grey Tail

안녕하세요! 👋

Hey! Hi! Hello!

Long time no seen, uh?

I’ve been thinking a lot about my blog friends this year, but getting down to writing — it always feels so overwhelming and gives me such sadness.

This was always a happy place for me, just like needlework. I associate it with good times, and fun, and coming here to write about the state of things — I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. All day since January has been news, world news, local news, reports, tallies, graphs, numbers, updates, our lives upside down, sleepless nights, so much fear for today, tomorrow, the future. I couldn’t bear the thought of having to find words of my own to describe an every changing situation, sitting down and reliving it all, once again. Here, of all places, where I’ve always tried to keep the bad at the door.

Health wise I’m fine, everyone I know is fine, and I feel so lucky about this — I really shouldn’t complain about anything else. It’s just that it can all go away in a snap, it has never been more clear how everything in our lives is precarious and not to be taken for granted.

I hope everyone is alright. I read and watch every day about the US, the UK, Europe, Hong Kong, China, South Korea, … we’re all facing so much, I honestly wonder how we will look like when we get to the end of this.

Wow, you came back here to cheer everyone up, eh?

Something happy and nice. OK. I can do that.

I started learning a new language! Major bucket list item since I was a little kid. I remember looking at the back of the packaging of a set of toothbrushes. You know, the kind that has 5 or 6, all in different colours displayed in a round stand. At the back were details in all sorts of languages, in teeny tiny print. And there was this very odd (to little me) alphabet, all circles and lines at 90 degree angles. So neat and tidy.

I had no idea what language that was, or what it would sound like when spoken. I just remember how happy it made me feel, to look at those perfect squares, straight lines, tiny lines, even tinier letters stacked together in square blocks.

Years later, watching the first episodes of Lost, I recall hearing the Asian couple arguing on the beach and thinking, Oh, to be able to talk like that! Ending your sentences with -eeyo, -ssoyo, .. If only I had the time and guts to embark on such a demanding journey.

Then, at the beginning of February, I figured I ought to have a plan in case we ended up shut in our homes with very little to do for months and months, and told myself, If you don’t do it now.. and you’ll only have yourself to blame if you don’t give it a try.

Well, imagine my surprise when I realised that that language Yunjin Kim and Daniel Dae Kim, with those lovely, sweet sounds, and that unbelievable neat alphabet are one and the same, Korean! 🤯

Mind blown, planets aligned, spirits lifted, and I quickly sourced a few textbooks and courses. It was a bit tricky at first, knowing absolutely nothing about it, but I think I did well with my early quarantine spending and now am happily practicing my new handwriting in Hangeul. 🎉

Is that a quilt on the cover of the yellow textbook?! 💁‍♀️ Yep!

What have you been up to? I hope you’re all stitching your stash away. Put some work in for me too, would you?

It’s the weirdest thing, I cannot bring myself to stitch more than a couple rows and everything gets so overwhelming. Suddenly I don’t want to keep going on anymore, change thread colour and move on. All I feel is utterly uselessness. I look at the chart and there’s so much work ahead that I don’t feel like I’ll ever get to it.

What once used to feel like a happy challenge, keeping me busy for hours in the evening and on weekends, now brings me hardly any joy. I love looking at it, all my WIPs and supplies, I even think about picking one up from time to time, then the bad feels come in and I just put everything into a box.

It’s a phase, I know. I’m sure.

Leave it to me to make absolutely zero progress even during months-long sheltering! 🥴🤣

I should go now, I have a new chapter in my textbook to get to. I also started reading The Song of Achilles. 💕

Again, I’m really sorry for not being around. I hope everyone is doing well.

Sending lots of happy thoughts and virtual hugs to you all,

안녕하세요! 💜

Chiara

P.S. BaBa is doing fine too, he’s always chilling in the shade during these crazy hot days, napping on a bed or a sofa. 💜

7 thoughts on “안녕하세요! 👋

  1. You are brave! Korean does look complicated… I once started learning Japanese but days are always so full I eventually decided I will try again when I retire 🙂
    I am sure your stitching mojo will return soon, keep safe

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  2. Wonderful to see a blog post from you. Korean looks beautiful to read, well done you for giving it a go. One of my colleagues has been learning sign language to talk to people in the shop or when she has to wear a mask.
    With the stitching, just one length a day will see slow but steady progress. I’ve got one project where I just do 20 stitches per day and that gets done eventually.

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  3. How nice to hear from you again! I was starting to worry. Learning a new language is a great challenge to pass the time in lockdown – I revived my Japanese studies as well. Korean is a pretty interesting one as well!

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  4. I didn’t get far with German, but glad to see you’re keeping up with Korean and enjoying it! As long as you’re keeping busy doing something, stitching will always be waiting for you.

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    1. hey Karen 😊 so good to read from you 💕
      I’m alright, I don’t know much about our stitching friends either.. feels like a lifetime ago 😢
      I still cannot bring myself to do any needlework, sadly. my hands & shoulders are happy about it, myself a little less tbh.
      I hope you’re doing well too, I wonder what intricate glittery scenarios you must have worked on since 🤩
      sending big hugs 🤗

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